Confused

So my cycle is totally weird since my mc. So I made an appointment with my doc to talk about it, because I figure it doesn't help with getting pg. I'm afraid she's going to want to put me on bc to regulate my cycle. On one hand, that idea sound horrific to me right now. But James thinks it'd be good to take a break anyway. I dunno. I guess we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. Ugh. My life just needs to straighten itself out right now.